Originally I just meant to add the images from Sadie’s Song, but I also added some others because I noticed I accidentally downloaded some low-res versions from the Crewinverse blog. Also, I’ve weeded out a couple other images because they weren’t wide enough to be made into a wallpaper. Imgur album here if you wanna look at these before you download them all.
Send in an ask if you want me to add another resolution to this list or would be interested in me just having separate download links for only the new backgrounds instead of just throwing all the new stuff in with the old like it is now. Heck, just do it if have any other suggestions while you’re at it.
Did someone say shitposting at 4am? Well ur getting it whether u like it or not.
In honor of pride month I’m gonna discuss sexuality and my own discovery of it. It’s definitely a process but writing it out helps me confirm it w myself so I’m not confused anymore.
I knew I liked girls but I also knew I liked boys so finding out abt being bi or pan was a great consolation for me. Reading rated ffs w lesbian sexual scenes or watching porn made me realize that damn girls are hot. But I never thought I could approach a guy w the intent to date or hook up w so I thought I should broaden my search n that was the tipping pt although v self serving and close-minded– if he won’t take me I j go to her typa deal.
The funny thing is I never disclosed my sexuality until jr yr? Like my best friend is the first person I came out to and once I did it was like I let out a breathe I was holding in for months. She helped get over my own feelings of anxiety and confusion because saying it out loud made them valid and tangible. I came out to my parents in an argument tho, when they thought my camp supervisor was hitting on me and didn’t want me to get dinner w him and the other counselors. Like they’re right that I did like him but assuming I’m straight hurt me so I yelled and came out. I came out to some friends when I posted a pride selfie set on twt confirming that I was pansexual. Like I know it accurately describes my sexuality but I’m not opened minded enough to approach nonbinary people but I know can be sexually attracted to them. So I came out to my college friends too and it j became easier to say it out loud and accept a part of myself I never really explored.
But another thing. Because I was sexually abused I know I have a controllable but unusual fixiation on sex and rape scenes are a trigger for me, but I don’t think I can actually get around to having sex unless I really trust u. Like I’m down to experiment w people (s) but oof it’s a mess.
And then to wrap it up, in college I’ve only had crushes on guys, bc they’re the only relationships I can model after on media like how to approach and flirt and it’s hurt me. Like idk how to flirt so I search it up, but it never really works out. Like I have an underlying fear that my friend is out to steal any guy I have a crush on and it hurts. I can’t talk about the guys I like in fear that she’ll meet them and ending up taking them from under my nose. Like I know she’d never betray me like that but I can’t control the guys feelings or force them to like me back but it takes a hit on my pride and makes me question our friendship on my part. Like it’s a very ugly side of me, envy the green monster is alive and well and i have wanted to talk to her about it but I never got the chance to. I have like 2 of the guys that have taken an interest in her before they met so if this pair ends up dating it j confirms my theory. I’d be heartbroken and upset and jealous but I know I’d j let it be and remove myself.
Tl;Dr : my sexuality is pansexual but I lean towards guys, trauma is a wound I have to live w, and I’m in the process of lessening the time I spend w her bc having someone tag and along and having to share fucking everything sucks esp when u know u need a break from them.
I’m def not the same person I am when I started. I did some things I’d never think I do. I made some friends that I’d never think I’d make. And I’ve accumulated experiences that I didn’t think I would be able to go through if it weren’t through impulsive decisions.
You are a lightweight. You can handle alcohol well but not 4 nogos. Weed is an out of body experience. Edibles make you brown out. E makes u horny but that’s j because of ur expectations. Don’t brown out 2 weekends in a row, ur body can’t handle it. I’m proud of u for only rolling once this year. Talk to people when ur sober not under the influence please, esp the dude.
You’re headstrong. You know what you want. You jump to conclusions. You can read any situation well except in the context of romantics. Like flirting n relationship stuff. Apparently you have a flirty personality but you just wanna make friends. It’s very hard. However, you can’t seem to make a move. You view things too positively which is why u have ppl like Maggie n Michelle n portillo to bring u back to earth because u get lost in the clouds too often. Cherish them. Heteros have ok intentions but listen to the women in ur life. They are powerful and they have been there before. They got ur back and will be there for you no matter what. You overthink things when u rlly need to let go. Just do it as long as it doesn’t physically harm anyone. It’s easier to ask for forgiveness than permission.
Take notes and ask for help. Be more disciplined. You know you shouldn’t be doing this but you do it anyways. You know better. Don’t use developing prefrontal cortex as am excuse.
Follow thru with ur plans. It’s the only way you’ll stay on track. Have a goal and plan ahead. You have friends and family to fall back on. It’s not the end of the world.
Live n love fiercely. Keep your friends close. Ur sister closer.
I love you. You’re amazing, radiant, accepting, witty, charming, beautiful, wise, loyal, self-observant, humble, and driven. Don’t lose that light. Don’t lose yourself. You can get back up again so why not try.
Encourage growth in yourself and those around you.
Asked what time but u started wasting mine. I think u came to play but it won’t go that way. I’ve never been serious, to say the truth, but I wanna be serious about u.
aries: you're full of ideas and they're always amazing! you are so much smarter than you give yourself credit for, even though you try to appear like you're a bit of a daredevil, you don't always like to come too far out of your cozy little comfort zone. but I promise, if you come out a bit more you can experience so many exciting things, and your abilities will make you shine like a star in the night sky.
taurus: not only are you are a badass, you're also super cool. if there are any haters its only because they want to be like you - really though. you just have an aura about you that pulls people in and once they get to know you, they don't ever want to get away. people want to overindulge in you, and if that wears you out then take a break and don't feel bad about it, your friends know you'll come back at the end of the day.
gemini: you're not a two-faced backstabbing bitch, you are a beautiful person who struggles with having to listen to an angel and a devil on your shoulders all day, which I can only imagine is super tough but you've done an incredible job to even come all this way and you should be so proud of yourself, I know I am. and lets take a moment to appreciate how you can walk into a room and suddenly be everyone's best friend with your natural charm and easy-going nature. you could take a bullet in the chest and your smile won't even falter. you're so determined to get what you want and you're so passionate and just everything you do is admirable. keep going, you rock this world.
cancer: if we're being real here, you don't actually cry *that* much. this is what it is - you have so many emotions swirling inside of you and they are like a beautiful storm of bright lights. and you should continue to let that out and share that beauty with everyone! but even with all that, you can be pretty hardcore and you are so strong, inside that whirlpool is a fire than burns bright, you should show people your intense passions as well as your caring side.
leo: you are amazing, and everyone around you knows it. if you're being too hard on yourself, lighten up a little because so far you've done everything right. everything happens for a reason, and if you feel guilty or sad about something just remember that your experiences have shaped who you are today - a beautiful, wonderful, magical creature with sparkling eyes, a loving soul and fabulous hair.
virgo: you work so hard to be on top of the game and I know how stressful that can be, but trust me when I'm saying that if you're doing the best you can, please don't push yourself any further. I'm sure you know what it feels like to get 3 hours sleep only to just scrape everything in on time, but you're doing just fine and please remember to reach out to your friends and loved ones and talk about how youre feeling. honestly, letting out any negativity makes you feel so, so much better, and you deserve the best.
libra: it's not that you're indecisive, you just like to weigh out all the pros and cons of a situation before you go into something - which is such a good idea, and I admire you for that. I bet you wish you had a crystal ball and could see the future to know how your decisions will turn out, huh? but the reality is that you should stop worrying about about the future and live in the moment. if you're not focusing on the present, you won't get to where you want to be in the future, and we definitely don't want to see you somewhere where your talents aren't being showcased.
scorpio: your personality is just so magnetic and you're so hypnotic, so many people absolutely adore you and would do anything for you - but sometimes they might not be 100% certain that the feelings are mutual. now, I know you love your friends and family so, so much with a fiercely strong love, but would it kill you to tell people that you love them and how you're feeling sometimes? everyone is here to help you and guide you on your journey to reaching the stars, but you can't build your rocket ship without the help of others.
sagittarius: you are incredible and so smart, it actually makes people stop in their tracks when you open your mouth and spout some beautiful, philosophical words of wisdom. or even just opening your mouth to say anything. everything about you is great but I'm not sure you appreciate yourself as much as you should. all the friends you have who love you should be an indication of how great you are. if you don't learn to love yourself, you might not be able to see through and out of your own little bubble and actually notice how much people care about you. because they care so, so much. don't you ever doubt that.
capricorn: your motto is work hard and don't take shortcuts, which is amazing and everyone admires you for that. it takes a lot of hard work and dedication to be you, and even if nobody mentions it, everyone is impressed. you're gonna go far, kid. but know that even if you're stuck in a rut right now you just need to jump a little higher and climb out. if you're stressed, talk to someone you trust and just open up and tell them what youre feeling. help them help you, and everything will be okay.
aquarius: we're not emotionless, we have a lot of feelings and we just choose not to express them because we're scared of people being overwhelmed by us, and we like to trust someone 100% before we open up. and there is nothing wrong with that. you're so good at listening to people's problems/how they feel and your advice is 10/10, but if you don't take time to talk to people about how you're feeling, you bottle everything up and one day it'll get so full that the lid will burst - and I know you're afraid of letting out all your feelings in one go, I definitely am. the only way around that is to let it out, bit by bit, slowly and over the years, to maintain your composure and sanity. and nobody will see you any different or judge you if you open up to them.
pisces: you're passionate, your creativity is out of this world, you're so good at helping people and you don't have a selfish bone in your body. you're always so up for helping people, and that is amazing! you're compassionate like no other, and your ideas are off-the-charts crazy cool. and you're not weak! you are perfectly capable of putting up your barriers, you just like to trust people enough to keep them down a lot of the time. and you're definitely not weak either, you've probably lived through some heartbreaking experiences, and you're still able to walk around with your head up and your heart open. now thats real strength.
I feel like people don’t tell high school kids this enough: community college is a great option!!!! If ur gpa is too low or u can’t afford to go to a 4-year college right after high school, you can still do 2 years at community college, work hard, and then transfer to a 4-year college and get your degree !!
- delete conversations between people you no longer talk to. its healthy to let go of the past and not letting yourself dwell on things.
- say kind things about people you like. say good things about yourself. don’t speak or think about people you don’t like.
- look in mirrors. you shouldn’t be afraid of facing yourself.
- clean sheets make clean sleep make clean minds
- allow yourself time to feel and grow. don’t be too hard on yourself for crying, you need to vent in order to move on to better times. even rainy days work towards sunny days.
- if things don’t work out, stop forcing them. there’s no reason for you to keep working and failing if there’s other places/people for you to excel and be happy.
- kiss your body, caress your body. make yourself feel loved.
- running away doesn’t always solve everything. sometimes, the reason that made you run will still be with you. focus on freeing yourself before starting anew.
- a glass of water and a good nights rest can go a long way
